Kim and I have been very fortunate with Eliot. He has been really good at sleeping in his own bed and sleeping through the night ...that is until recently. For the last few nights Eliot has been waking up around 1:00 am to 2:00 am screaming for someone...anyone to come to his aid. Last night I decided to watch him on the video monitor and saw some interesting behavior. Even though most of these parenting books recommend that you don't place a nightlight in your child's room, we put one in his room. Yes, I know, we are horrible parents. How could we fall into that trap? Well a couple of midnight stubbed toes are all you need to convince you otherwise. Light is good for us diurnal mammals.
So I'm watching him on the monitor while he is screaming at the top of his lungs. Yes, I know this sounds really cruel, but I am a Daddy and Daddy's try to figure things out. We make things better through logic and reason. And what do I observe? Eliot's had his arms through the crib rails and was attempting to grab the nightlight off of the wall! He can't actually reach it, but he sure was trying. I walked across the hall into his bedroom, he turned around and waited to be picked up. Once in my arms, he was fine. No whimpers even, but lots of twisting and turning around --looking. But as soon as I would do something that meant he had to go back to bed (sit in the rocker or move towards the crib), he would immediately start screaming again. By this time, Kim went downstairs and got him a bottle of watered down juice. That helped A LOT. He calmed down enough for Kim to rock him while he sipped his juice. She was able to get him close to sleep. But when she got him in his crib, he started screaming again. Then it was my turn. I began to rock him. Slowly, he calmed down again and was beginning to fall asleep. I felt his arms fall against his sides. I slowly picked him up and put him in his crib. But as soon as he hit the mattress, he started to whimper. This time I walked out of the room hoping that he would just fall asleep. We gave him ten minutes, but he was not going to sleep now. He was quite awake again. So Kim went in and rubbed his back for a while. He finally gave up about 2:30 am. With a sigh he rolled over and fell asleep.
While rocking Eliot I noticed the complex shadows on Eliot's ceiling caused by the nightlight shining through the rocker and his crib. It made me remember how scared I would get as a kid. I would create all sorts of horrors from the dark places. There was a witch that lived in my toybox and a ghost outside my window. I got to thinking about those shadows that scared me and could possibly be scaring him now. And I realized what Eliot was doing earlier. He was trying to get rid of the shadows by getting rid of the light that created them. But he couldn't. So he did the next best thing. He got Mommy to make it all better. And she did, as she always does ...with comfort and love. Sometimes logic and reason just doesn't cut it, especially against dark shadows in the night.
But I still think tonight we'll try things without the nightlight.